Poetry has never been an option, most definitely. I suck at it. I have no idea how to write a good one. Heck, I don't even have an idea how to interpret and understand one. I've only come to appreciate it after my Introduction to Poetry class in College. That was one class I was dreading to take. I had a feeling I would suck at it. I had a feeling I wouldn't understand anything during group discussions. I would just sit there listening to my classmates, feeling dumb and out of place. In reality, well, I really felt dumb. Everyone sounded so intelligent, everything they said had depth. When it came to the written exercises, I didn't do well... But I didn't suck at them either. I got a 1.75 in that class. The highest in our Uni is 1.
I also took an Introduction to Non-Fiction or was it Creative Non-Fiction? Well, whatever, I loved it. I've been practically writing non-fiction my whole life. I had my first diary when I was 5 and my first blog when I was 13 or 15. I remembered being so scared in that class. The feeling wasn't the same as when I took Poetry. I was too scared to be evaluated and judged - especially since I grew up believing that I might be good at writing. I pushed myself during workshops, I took constructive criticism, and even gave out some. I got a 1.5 in that class. The highest is 1.
That was when I realized that I made the wrong decision. I should have taken Creative Writing in College. Instead, I got scared and took a 'safer' path - a more 'academic' course. I thought it was better to suck at something I just memorized and studied for than to suck at something I created out of my thoughts. I'm not saying that I'm good at this writing thing. I'm saying that I dreaded those Poetry and Non-Fiction classes, but deep down, I was excited about them too. Those classes didn't feel like classes. When I was there, I felt like I was just having fun and learning a lot of things about skills that have always mattered to me since I was 5.
I've always been a bookworm. This may be why I got attracted to writing. I like the feeling that books give me and I want to be able to share that with others. Just so you know, when I read, I really READ. I immerse myself in the book and I usually don't stop until I'm done with it. I get stuck inside the world, the era, or the milieu of the story. This is also why I get stuck with piles of unread novels. It takes me a while before I get out of the worlds and emotions a book brings. It may sound weird, yes, but it helped me cope with the different problems I had growing up - no matter how simple they may be.
Now that I'm older, I should be wiser. I shouldn't be afraid to take risks anymore. Life is really too short to choose a 'safer' path. I should face my problems and not immerse myself in books, in the hopes of escaping whatever problem I have at the time.
It's time to put myself out there and continue doing what I love. I have no idea how to do it. But I'm guessing this is a good first step.
♥ Anna
Now that I'm older, I should be wiser. I shouldn't be afraid to take risks anymore. Life is really too short to choose a 'safer' path. I should face my problems and not immerse myself in books, in the hopes of escaping whatever problem I have at the time.
It's time to put myself out there and continue doing what I love. I have no idea how to do it. But I'm guessing this is a good first step.
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